Every moment that I’ve ever experienced has led me here writing this post. And every moment that you ever experienced has led you to this very moment; reading this. Whether you were looking for answers or just stumbled across my page, thank you for being here and taking the time to read this. I hope that by sharing my journey, that I can encourage you on yours. It’s important to know that everyone’s spiritual journey is different and will happen at different times in their lives.
As a child, I grew up in a very spiritual family. I knew how much spirituality meant to my family so I made an effort to be apart of it. About 2 years ago I lost a family member who was very close to me. She was the person in my family who kept the spirit alive and motivated others to find it within them. Without her, everything seemed to have been lost.
After I lost her, I found myself falling into a really dark place and I indulged myself in many unhealthy habits – mentally and physically. Instead of accepting the loss and moving on from it, I had been distracting myself and living in a false reality – looking for validation everywhere within myself. Eventually, I had lost a lot of weight and my depression and anxiety had been at an all-time low. I felt like I had completely hit rock bottom and I was begging to be saved.
I knew I couldn’t live like this anymore. It was then I realized that I was the key to bettering myself. I was the only person who can save myself from this feeling. I knew I needed to reintroduce spirit back into my life, so that’s what I did – in a way that I haven’t really experienced before. As I mentioned earlier, spirituality has always been a part of my life but I never truly understood it the way I do now.
My Healing Process
I began doing yoga every day. This was a very powerful tool that really helped me focus on the mind to body connection. I would start each morning with a 10-minute yoga routine. This helped me feel excited to rise each morning and do something beautiful for my body. It also helped with my concentration as I was being introduced to meditation. Meditation was such a powerful experience for me. It helped me to clear my mind in a way that’s hard to do with everything that each day brings. It helped put my mind at ease from all of the overwhelming thoughts that were running through my mind. I was able to use this as a tool to slow my mind down and finally be able to catch up with my thoughts and suddenly everything that had been stressing me out just didn’t seem so bad.
Another tool I used to keep track of my thoughts was journaling. I started writing down what I did during the day and how I was feeling at that very moment. Now as I reflect back on the words I was writing, I can see how meditation has completely transformed my thoughts. When I began journaling, it seemed as if my words had been scripted. As if I was only writing what I thought others expected of me. Now as I look through my more recent journals, I can see that I’ve begun doing things for myself. I’m starting to know the difference between what I want and what others want and I see now that it’s okay to be different. And now I see that I’ve come to a place where I can finally be myself.
Recently, I’ve started spending a lot more of my time alone. As I was younger I did this a lot, but in the last few years, I’ve tried to push myself to be more outgoing. But honestly, this doesn’t make me happy. I noticed a lot of the people I was spending so much of my time with were really negative and didn’t have positive intentions. Every time I would hang out with these certain people, I would feel so mentally and physically drained. This is when I started to erase the negative people out of my life and spent most of my time alone.
Being alone gave me so much more time to reflect and learn so much more about spirituality. I started reading books, listening to podcasts, and watching movies on the topic and began to gather so much insight. This is when I began writing intentions, manifesting, and changing my negative self-talk. These things didn’t click for me overnight but over time using these tools became so powerful and motivating.
Trust The Process
This is a lifelong journey and you are going to experience many ups and downs throughout it. There was this one moment last Christmas, I was at a place that was really special to her and I could feel her spirit. It was like her soul was intertwined with mine. It was the most beautiful and indescribable feeling. That moment made everything that I had previously worked on worth it.
For a while, I felt amazing that I had a moment where I felt reconnected with her again. The feeling of her spirit was burning so bright and it stuck with me but after a while, it started to fade and I desperately wanted to feel it again. I began rushing the process. I started focusing on what I wanted and how exactly to get it. When I wasn’t seeing any results, I started to doubt the process. This led to me feeling overwhelmed which started to worsen my anxiety and depression again. I felt like I was starting to slip back into old habits. I began struggling to be alone instead of feeling at peace. One day I just stopped and took a break from everything. I went for a long walk by myself, cleared my mind and I took a moment to reflect on how I was feeling. That was when I realized how negatively my energy had shifted.
I accepted everything at that moment. Every downfall I had encountered had brought me to this moment. I accepted that. Each downfall would enlighten me on how fortunate and how beautiful life really is. I am now able to rewire my brain and develop a deeper understanding from these moments. Things could be so much worse than they are so it’s really important to be thankful for all of the little things. Treat each problem that falls in your path as an experience to learn something about yourself and from there you can grow and become even stronger.
Discovering Precious Moments
From that moment on, I really started to grow. I got to this place where I could turn every negative thing that happened into a positive moment. One day I had an appointment and I slept through my alarm. When I got out of bed I was getting ready and I was making a mess. Then when I was on the way there, I got stuck in traffic and it felt like everything was going wrong. When I finally arrived, I was 10 minutes late but they were super understanding and still accepted me. That day I just felt so grateful for everything that happened even though I was so exhausted. I didn’t let it bother me. I felt everything that happened wasn’t worth my negative energy. It can be so awarding to just take a breath when you’re feeling stressed and think about only positive things.
I began to see the beauty in everything that came before me. Every meal I ate, every sip of water I drank, every tree I saw, every sound I heard, everything I felt internally, and all of the other moments were so beautiful. There are so many precious moments and things in our lives and it’s important to focus on them every day.
Every moment became so precious to me. I stopped expecting things and started accepting things. I trusted that whatever moment I was experiencing was meant to align in my path. And then it did. Things were beginning to align with the things I was manifesting. I began losing attachment to things that were not meant to align.
When you realize that your thoughts are your reality it can really recondition your mind. Everything that you think you can become if you have a positive mindset. No matter how good or bad it was, I realized that I was meant to learn something from each experience.
Lessons I’ve Learned
When I began on this journey I felt like I needed to learn everything at once but after I taught myself how to listen to myself – I realized that spirituality isn’t about learning everything like a crash course. It is about connecting with your higher self and finding a deeper understanding within. You make the rules. You are in control of your own happiness. Everything that happens to you comes down to you. It’s truly an amazing experience to be able to understand yourself and listen to yourself. It’s such a powerful experience. I would recommend this to everyone if I could! When you realize that your thoughts are your reality it can really recondition your mind. Everything that you think you can become if you have a positive mindset. No matter how good or bad it was, I realized that I was meant to learn something from each experience. I stopped expecting things and started accepting things.
Spirituality is a lifelong journey and I’m still at the beginning of mine. I’ve been on my journey for a year now and I’ve learned so much and I can’t wait to learn and get an even deeper understanding. Remember not to rush the process. You won’t see results right away. It will take time but when you do, it will be worth it.
This was really just a summary of my journey so far. I have truly learned so much and I have so many more words to share. If you feel inspired to learn more or if you would like to read more of my posts. Subscribe to my email list so you will be notified whenever I upload a new blog. Thank you so much for reading. I hope you have a wonderful day!